she's waiting by the computer, pacing, watchful, eyes trained on the screen. the email inbox, empty, stays clear - still nothing new comes in. she anticipates something, though she is unsure what she's looking for. under her feet, the floor is cold. an error pops up: blocked. message blocked, same as all the tries… Continue reading anticipate + explosion + blocked
slyly fake, you wait for seduction so you don't seem to do all the work. sorry, sweetheart: you'll be waiting long.
you begin. one proposition, oft repeated throughout the years. so patient of you, but not now. what about now, you ask sorry, new goals. you do understand, thank you; later, promise. too many years wear by the promise broken. i'm sorry, what more can i do? my turn.
the waiting game drags on. door one: fall back into the safety net. reliable and secure cocooned for a little longer. door two: congratulations little bird, you're done. flutter your wings hop in the air. the waiting game drags on.
cold anxiety andwhite-hot fear mingle.goosebumps, in the middleof summer - it's too warm, and I can't help being anxious.muscles tense and I can't focus on anything else.iron willpower crumblesin the face of this, still pending.rescue remedy runs dry.diversions.read too much andsend overly-long emails.it's not enough though,it never is.judgement day.are you good enough?wait and see.yes or no, thereis… Continue reading anxiety