she's waiting by the computer, pacing, watchful, eyes trained on the screen. the email inbox, empty, stays clear - still nothing new comes in. she anticipates something, though she is unsure what she's looking for. under her feet, the floor is cold. an error pops up: blocked. message blocked, same as all the tries… Continue reading anticipate + explosion + blocked
you begin. one proposition, oft repeated throughout the years. so patient of you, but not now. what about now, you ask sorry, new goals. you do understand, thank you; later, promise. too many years wear by the promise broken. i'm sorry, what more can i do? my turn.
the waiting game drags on. door one: fall back into the safety net. reliable and secure cocooned for a little longer. door two: congratulations little bird, you're done. flutter your wings hop in the air. the waiting game drags on.
cold anxiety andwhite-hot fear mingle.goosebumps, in the middleof summer - it's too warm, and I can't help being anxious.muscles tense and I can't focus on anything else.iron willpower crumblesin the face of this, still pending.rescue remedy runs dry.diversions.read too much andsend overly-long emails.it's not enough though,it never is.judgement day.are you good enough?wait and see.yes or no, thereis… Continue reading anxiety