excavations begin, mining underway. digging deep to find you in the vestiges of old memory. it's trickier than anticipated. these files should be here, somewhere, but they're hard to locate. your indignation at this slight is not necessary. perhaps you should be here somewhere - you are not. eyes faded and voice little more than… Continue reading NaPoWriMo 7 (tricky)
the further away i am the easier it is to remember. (it's together that makes forgetting so difficult)
thriving, times five
after i left it was five days before i thrived, breaking thoughts apart. ----- thriving: five months on, free of you - but you'll never be quite free of me. ----- five months on and i'm thriving, learning the fine art of forgetting you. ----- five years on and i'm thriving without you, just as… Continue reading thriving, times five
nothing reminds me of you anymore.
let's freeze this moment in time and pretend we won't forget in five years. --- remembering is reduced to this: one moment trapped under plastic.
I am still caught, entangled in all the baggage I don't need. Still don't know how to forget. You are the spellmaster, the weaver and I am the unwitting hunter. I find, but I cannot - do not - lose. (that accursed pattern) Are you equally caught?
free of you
the loops are a constant. try to forget once more and be cursed to remember. whoever said that a good memory was a good thing? try to stop missing you and be trapped into it. when am i ever going to be free of you? try to mend the fences and be stuck hidden away.… Continue reading free of you
time to forget you again. i mean it this time just as i have every other time i've said it. memories slip through my grasp. they fade day by day facilitated by new hobbies and various ways to amuse myself. but after that the flood. they return unwanted and unbidden because they were only repressed… Continue reading cyclical
forgetting you is a battle. endless blue of the brightest day never grants a reprieve. paper thin control always, always allows the curse to return. for you are a curse destined to remain trapped here. all these memories are flawless and every exorcism will fail. and a girl remains locked in her forest and body.… Continue reading the curse
even in darkness so deep it seems infinite i cannot forget.